Every moment is precious

When I was young, carefree and innocent, I explored everything I could. As I got older I was conditioned by my peers and elders to be cautious. Suddenly, my mind was filled with suspicion and doubt. By the time I was sixteen I had become completely conditioned to believe that this world was a very scary place and that there was nothing that was completely safe. There were no precious moments anymore!

Consequently, I spent the next thirty years in fear. Then suddenly, all those negative things that had happened to me seemed to transform into a new understanding. I found out that what appeared to be scary was in fact a lesson in growing up. Yes, at the grand age of 46, I finally became an adult.

So, what was my idea of an adult? Someone who was capable, responsible and ready to stand alone. But, since I had no idea what standing alone meant to me, I spent the next 20 years finding out. Now, I know!

It means being like I was as a young child, but with a difference. Now my mind is just as curious, in fact, perhaps much more so. Learning is easy, once I find I am interested in discovering something. I learn what I feel about those things and slowly, perhaps in different ways, I experiment. Little by little, I now know I am a genious in my own way. It does not matter anymore what others think that is, or how I show and tell what I know. All that matters to me is that I know.

Now comes the big lesson! Being able to be myself, explore and not be influenced by any demands, expectations or hopes that I may create. Self discipline means doing things at the right time, in the right way to please myself. Daily, I find a new way to do that. So, inspite of others, I get along fine.

One problems still remains: how to fit my personal schedule into the ways of the world! Perhaps some may call me selfish, but I like to call it spiritually aware and in touch with the divine source that is in all of us. So, if someone needs me, I know that and I am there for them. Others, well they may ask, but I know they can cope without me. So, I bless them and let them go.

Perhaps you life is filled with people demanding you be what they want you to be. Take time to find yourself! Have some precious moments now! Tomorrow is too late!